OMG! I'm Litterally Dying!

Jun Chuan's New Profile Photo
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OMG! What is happening to my life right now? I borrowed Xiang Xiang's iPhone 5 and started scrolling through his Facebook account. Then, suddenly, I got this very idiotic idea to search for my crush, Chan Jun Chuan's account.

Now that I actually searched for it, I regret it so, so much! At first, I'd expected not to see any changes since the last time I checked, JC hadn't logged in to his Facebook since he was 8 years old. But guess what? I was SO wrong about it. 

When the page had loaded, I swear I could've woken an apartment of sleeping people with my continues screaming. He'd changed his profile pic to the one above. At first I thought, hey, did Ryan (JC) take Yan Qi's Go Go Wonderful Dog? But the sad thing was that I realised that it was actually his own, which somehow managed to freak me out even more.

Then Xiang Xiang asked me, “Hey McD, whatcha yellin' 'bout?” Then I showed the photo to him, and he said, “This guy again, is he your boyfriend, wait, no, husband or something?” I swore right there and then that I SO wanted to strangle him.

Then I wanted to scream so badly, “Xiang, you sound just like my BFFs Yan Qi and Nydia!”, but decided it better to just shut my yapper since I'm very fond of blabbing my own private buisness. I ran upstairs and called, “Ling, I let you see the photo, then you tell me if he's handsome or not.”

She scanned the photo and told me, “Yeah, very, very, VEEEERRRRYYY handsome!” sheepishly. I felt as if a weight was lifted off my shoulders. At least someone in my family agrees with me. Now to think of it, I really do miss my guy friends in my class. Excluding JC, of course.

It's so hard to befriend him because he is a very keep-to-myself person. Well, only to me, I guess. I'm so glad that sui gu doesn't know a single thing about me liking JC because I remember when I was little, I used to crush on this guy named Edmund, and he'd tease me severely about it.

I have a little confession to make: Even though I pretend I don't care, but I really do wish someone'd love me for who I really am. I feel as if my parents don't care about me ever, and I want a special someone to just reach out to me whenever I need them most.

But with the reputation that my teacher gave me in class, that's almost impossible. I know that Nydia, Kristofer and Edmund are really close to me, but then other than my friends, no one even likes me. I really don't understand those people, beacause I am absolutely positive that I have never done anything to hurt them physically or mentally.

I wish I had Nydia or Henry to talk to right now, but at this time, no one even sees me as a person anymore. I wish life could just go back to the way it was, no secrets, hatred or anything of the sort to ruin the innocent life that God gave us.

Oh, I've got to run. My relatives are coming soon so I have to greet them. Until then, my fellow readers...